first of all.. happy new year to all of you guys. mwah! :*

anyway. i`m here to tell you guys that i`m gonna transfer to my new home. i think i`m gonna ditch my xanga for a while. lolz. but don`t worry guys. i`ll still drop by in your account. and comment here and there. keep in touch. lolz. and yeah. you guys can comment on my blog too coz non blogger users can still comment. lolz. stay safe you all okay? so my new year`s update will be seen there in my blogspot.

so the linkie is here.

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please do click on that coz i`ll miss you guys a lot. *sigh* well. not really a lot coz i know that i`ll still be dropping by your accounts. lolz. :D

i`m really not in the mood to update, (the hell why am i sitting here? typing?)  but i feel like i have to update or something. i have nothing much to say. nothing interesting. nothing pleasant. nothing nice. nothing nothing. i`m reading "tuesdays with morrie" yeah, ngaeon ko pa nbasa. gak! i wanna meet someone just like morrie. and probably the reason why i don`t feel like updating really is because of the things that i read from this book. i mean, it`s all about life and all that, it made me think deeper about life, think and think and think. that`s one of the reasons why i`m glad (glad? wtf?!) that i flunked anatomy. coz it gave me the break i needed to think about things, and really reflect on this thing called life. see, i don`t know what to type anymore. anyway, thankee again to you guys, lam nu kng cno kayo. wala ako sa mood now mg-special mention, sorry, kse parang mejo maluwag screw sa utak ko now. senxa na. crap. all of a sudden if feel so down. coz i don`t know what`s my purpose, i feel like there are tons of things in life that i have to reflect on. there`s this my purpose (what`s my purpose?). my fear of death. my fear of the unknown. in the future, what do really want? what can i do so that i can be completely satisfied with my life just like morrie. how can i stop being so envious? i wanna be satisfied with my life. but i think i can never be satisfied. see, i think i have an okay life right now, i mean we`re not that extremely poor or rich, we`re kinda like in the middle. and i eat three meals a day. i go to school. we have a computer. i can enjoy music. enjoy life. how come d pa rin ako satisfied? i still want more? see, i want a laptop, i-pod (oo, wala pa rin ako nun, ). i wanna get outta here. i wanna be independent (kahit na alam ko mas-okay ang may parents, kse cla bahala sa lahat. hehe). see, ang dami kong gs2. so how can i be satisfied? nkakainis pa, kse dba, sabi nila, MAN CAN NEVER EVER BE SATISFIED, i mean, you`ll always want more.

one thing`s for sure mitch albom is driving me nuts.

a huge thank you again for all those who took their time to drop by my page and read my blabs.

ghen
zhel
diane
tishy

thankeee....anyway, hmm. what happend to my day? actually, i had classes this morning. and i have the coolest schedule. 7:3o-8:3o. okay lang kaya un? hahaha! so yeah, after my class in the morning i went straight home. good girl kse ako eh. wahahaha. yeah, i saw zhel's blog, and i missed blogthing tuloy [miss nnmn. haha]. and yeah, ghen, i`m gonna write a song about xangers. hopefully, i`ll finish it soon. lolz.

hoohuum, i`ve got nothing special to write really. no reflections for the day. lemme think.

oh yeah. this afternoon, i had fun reading my diary. my diary that i used to update when i was still in my senior year [h.s]. i kept on laughing. it was really hilarious, i mean the way i write, talk, my handwriting and all that. and the things that i write about. but i felt like i was sooo inlove when i was still in h.s. lolz. yeah, so the whole afternoon, i just read and slept. hahaha. and yeah, used the net. THAT boring. and of course, sound tripping. d mawawala un sound tripping.

i should look for a nice gif or something for my shout out thingy. lolz. :D

ps: may pahabol pa pala ako sa shoutouts ko before i sign out.

i was supposed to post this entry last friday but then... naubusan ako ng lod...keya..eto..ngaeon ko nalang n-post..hehe..:p

"we kiss each other one more time and sing this lie that`s halfway mine. the sword is slicing through the question so i won`t be fooled by his angel light - flyleaf"

hohum.i miss jamming.i miss going to the jamming studio and screaming at the top of my lungs.watching my sister play the drums, my friend irish pluck the bass guitar & of course staring at my best friend strum & pluck the guitar. i miss the way we sound. kinda rough on the edges and all that crap and a lil more polishing and we`ll be ready for a band competition. lolz. okay, okay, fine, i dunno, but i love my band, so i`m biased, i mean, we can play the song basket case, that`s something right? right? answer me! hahaha. and yeah, we can play flyleaf songs, weee. that`s something for me.i mean, irish! she just started playing the bass guitar this year and she plays really well already, with her sorta dance. she looks so cute whenever she dances. well, just picture this, a girl, plucking her bass guitar & kinda moving her knees and hips, okay fine, never mind, i suck at describing, baka ibang image pumasok sa utak nu. lolz. duh? my sister?!? she`s been the playing the drums ever since ever ever ever. pointless. my best friend, she was born to play the guitar. hahaha. me and my biased self. and me? ugh, never mind. i just love screaming, that`s singing for me. hahaha. i miss them. i miss screaming a.k.a singing.

this made me realize that i miss a lot of things, people, and whatever. i miss high school. i miss my barkada. i miss my bestest best friend. i miss starbucks. i miss partying [i mean, dancing somewhere dark, whatever, i think you get my point, dancing with my friends of course, coz me and my barkada never got the chance to do that, i mean, i tried it with my college friends, but not with my barkada in h.s]. i miss bataan. i miss the fresh air there. i miss my cousins there in bataan. i miss jamming [duh?!]. i miss playing the keyboard [we do have a keyboard here but it frustrates me coz everytime i try playing it, it makes me remember that i`m not good at it..:(]. same with the drums & piano [ for my keyboard and piano is different, so to hell with you. lolz]. i miss vacation. i miss siomai. i miss steamed rice. i miss national book store [c0z before it was just near my school (h.s). i miss mango square [i`m not sure if you`re familiar with that]. i miss chatting with this certain friend of mine. i miss hanging out with my college friends. i miss the beach. i miss pools. i miss playing billiards. i miss drinking [okay, just the feeling of getting really2 high coz of this liquid thingy, but, i never tried throwing up or collapsing whatever]. i miss my friends who`ve migrated already. i miss my kuya and ate [half bro&sis]. i miss my dad [haha! especially, the paxalan times, oohh i`m so bad]. i miss the karaoke sessions. i miss coffee sessions in starbucks with my barkada. i miss the letting it all out sessions during h.s (just ask me about that). i miss fooling around with my barkada. i miss playing in the sand. i miss chit-chatting with my barkada. i miss my online friends. i miss blogging [wait? i am blogging now. haha]. i miss relaxing. i miss being a child. i miss playing patintero. i miss playing chinese garter. i miss being slightly, kinda thin [way2 back, grade school days], i`ll post a photo someday, when i get the chance. i miss being innocent.

*sigh* i miss... 

hey, i hope the smileys that i posted works. got that from blogring.

ps: i love FLYLEAF

OMG! i`m sorry for not being able to update for quite some time. okay, here`s the thing, last friday, just after signing off, i was kidnapped! by the abu sayaff. okay, pretty lame for an excuse. okay, fine, i`ll tell you the truth, champ lui pio asked me out on a date, duh?! who would refuse right? so yeah, we went on a date and then, he asked me to marry him. crap. i don`t have a sense of humor at all, even one bit, sorry for this lame introduction. fine, the truth is, i really had a great long weekend. my last update was last friday. what happend? hmm... let me recall. so last friday, i was yeah, updating here, and then we were supposed to go to this concert but then i was too lazy to ask for permission and i didn`t have the energy to argue with my parents so, we didn`t push through with the idea of me and my friends jumping up and down [not really jumping up and down, probably swaying or whatever], singing to the songs of hale, up dharma down and other great bands. *bummer* yeah i know.

SATURDAY

so my best friend and i just planned for a jamming session with our very own band. oh yeah, our band`s called, i mean for now, "the girl with a hidden agenda". yep. my document title, well anyway. ugly name? or what? lolz. there`s a story behind that, i`ll probably tell you guys about it later. so. yeah, jamming session in a jamming studio, duh? well actually, i thought that my best friend was planning to jam in the studio but all she wanted was for us to practice here lang pala sa house. but then i jumped to conclusions and all that so i asked permission from my dad right away about our jamming session, and i was so excited about it coz my dad said yes right away coz he loves our band. lolz. our number one fan. hahaha. well anyway. so i texted my bandmates, and crap, none of them replied, so i just interpreted that as a YES. so the next day. [am i making any sense here?]. i was ready to go to the studio and make the reservations coz we were planning to jam in the afternoon coz my best friend has a class and our bassist needs to go somewhere and my sister, has to like practice with her own bandmates in school for their presentation in social grace or something. so then, 4-6 it is. i was psyched about it. oh yeah, i went to my sister`s band practice, and they sounded okay. it was fun, yeah, and they adored my sister [okay, proud ate coming through, super stage ate]. i`m really proud of my sister coz she knows how to handle the drumsticks and also has the skills to strum and pluck the guitar. and is a fast learner. so horraaay. lolz. & no sibling rivalry, promise. so yada2 yada yada. my sister even missed her recital practice for her school band, and after the school band practice, i think the name of the school band is "under probation" or something.

so yeah, after the band practice, we ate, and then went straight to our jamming session, luckily, irish [our bassist] said that she`d join us and my best friend [lead guitarist] was there also. horaay, so we were kinda complete, coz our [2nd guitarist] my cousin wasn`t there. anyway, yada2.

i had so much fun! a blast really. even though irish was a lil bit late, which was kinda a waste of time and money. lolz. but it`s okay rish. anyway. so when irish arrived in the studio, we started playing the song "i`m so sick - flyleaf". i had a great time jumping around, really doing my moves ala lacey mosley style. and screaming at the top of my lungs for the SIIIICCCK, LIIIVVVEEE part [okay, i suggest that you listen to the song so that you`ll have an idea, lolz]. so much fun, and we really really wanna try performing in front of an audience and have our first gig. *sigh* so at the end of our i`m so sick playing and all that, after 3 i`m so sicks. wow. my voice became kinda hoarse and all that, i sounded like a drag queen or something, it was so deep compared to my normal voice. lolz. and they were all laughing at me. but hey. we had fun, and after the i`m so sicks, we played other songs, from flyleaf, and also make damn sure, take me away, and all that. oh yeah, we also tried making a rhythm or melody of some sort to one of my compositions. lolz. so yeah, we had a great great time and this friday, we`re gonna practice and all that, my best friend`s gonna teach my cuzn some new songs, and on saturday, we`ll probably get the chance to jam again.

SUNDAY

hmm...sunday,..oh! my sister`s recital. yeah. my sister was so pissed off, well not really THAT pissed off but she hated her piece for the recital, i mean she was asked to play [in a band, with other recitalist playing the guitars and singing], complicated by avril lavigne. my sister [i know sobrang yabang, but she has every right naman ata, coz she knows what she`s doing, lolz], want to play complicated songs. i mean, challenging ones. lolz. and i have no clue why her instructor chose that song for her, probably for the benefit of her other bandmates. ugh! gosh, i was so embarassed for the vocalist. :( i mean, the people were really laughing at her while she was singing. and she couldn`t like match her pace with her other bandmates. my sister even missed a couple of drum rolls because all she could hear was the vocalist`s voice. :(( and she couldn`t hear the guitars, but she just missed a lil bit. but it wasn`t really that obvious, so we`re still proud of her. anyway, the recital was so tiring because we had to wait for hours for my sister to perform, she was one of the last performers, so we had to sit there and listen to all the other recitalists, some of them were great some of them were not that good. but hey that`s why they`re learning right? okay, enough of that.

MONDAY

so, i have classes later. [3pm]. and right now, i`m just surfin and browsin, i`m gonna vist other blog sites, especially for those who gave a comment and tagged. thanks. i`m gonna post your name lateeerrr. haha, sorry for this very very boringly long update. lolz.

love you all. waaaa. oh yeah, i`m currently obsessing over our own band [haha, vain, but love your own right? lolz] and flyleaf, i love their songs, the lyrics, so meaningful.

aryt. am out.